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Love is an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
"Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."
you make me content with discontent.
you let me know that i am not alone.
and i can always rest my head on your shoulders.
i close my eyes and breathe you in
If you could only see through my eyes
You'd know I'd die for you
Right now nothing could take this, this moment
To taste your lips here on mine
Your skin is so silky soft.
Don't want to let you go
Because you're mine
if you were my best friend
i'd want you around all the time
can i be your best friend
if you promise that you'll be mine
I can hear your words of treason from a mile away.
You never did know how to whisper.
You fuckin liar. Tell me the truth.
Do the world a favor stop cutting your arms, and slit your throat.
All I ever wanted to be was the one who would wipe those tears from your eyes.
But I guess I’ll play second best, to a world that will never care about you.
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[17 Sep 2005|05:22pm] |
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i dont know what everyone is thinking or saying but i never said that i hated laura
so im just making that clear....
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[15 Sep 2005|10:48pm] |
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Supportive:Furnishing support or assistance.
Judgmental:Inclined to make judgments, especially moral or personal ones
you cant be supportive when you judge everything your "friends" do. and if you dont like what your friends are doing there really isnt much you can do about it cause everyone is going to do what they want to do anyway... and thats the way it should be. dont do it cause its cool..
dont do it cause eveyone else does...
if we want to get cancer and die then thats what we want to do.. i mean cause if we committed suicide then you would probley lecture us about that too
if you want to save people from the big bad world of drugs then be supportive not judgemental
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[10 Sep 2005|02:24pm] |
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i dont think that im going to make it to harbor fest tonight... i dont feel like getting there at 5 then leaving at 830. soo i hope everyone has fun!! i really do. its come to my attenion that i was a burrden in the past. i m not whining or complaning just makeing an observation. ive probley annoyed alot of ppl and didnt even know it. if ive annoyed you in any way im sorry.. im turning over a new leaf i promise... i am going to try my damnedest to not be a pain in the ass. and if that means not going to onancock till i get my liscence so i dont have to burden aynone with me staying at there house. then ill just have to wait. im not trying to get comments here. in fact i dont even know if im going to post this.. i just really needed to get all of this off my chest.
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[09 Sep 2005|04:02pm] |
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wow this first week of school was a killer! i like all my classes, but they're HARD! i guess im just going to have to work on it.
im trying to get to onancock for harbor fest... but i dont think that is happening.. i need to get my liscense!
i miss everyone!
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[05 Sep 2005|12:00pm] |
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wow its been a while since i wrote in here. but i have the internet back and life is pretty mother effing happy right now. i the past few weeks that i havent seen anyone or even talked to anyone for that matter. i started to make changes in myslef
i no longer get upset when ppl dont include me (sighs of relef for everyone)
im going to put my school work before everything
im not going to let stupid shit make me sad
no more getting upset about being upset and not having anyone to talk to
no more suffocating my friends
no more being bitchy, pain in the ass tessa
no more complaining about my bad home life
no more complaining about little things
hopefully i will be a better person now. but i have to complain about one thing. i dont know if this is complaining but... i miss everyone i miss brookie mandy amanda heather mere katelyn ryan wally alex chris john camilo laura tessa and lots of other ppl i miss my friends!!!! but everyone has there own busy lifes so hopefully eventualy i will get to see eveyone before christmas or something.
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[12 Jun 2005|01:42pm] |
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today is Amandas 16th birthday! YAY!
so i here chillin at amandas when i decided that i need to update my livejournal while i still am able to! the internet is wonderful!
school is out! I passed! how exciting is that!
Hmm.. i dont plan to be home that much this summer. that is if i can help it, i hate it at my house. but really who likes beign home?
ive not been haveing that great of a past few weeks but what else is new? i havent hung out with mandella and brookie in like forever! it makes me sad. but its all good.
im going to get ready for amandas party =-D
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[16 Apr 2005|12:39pm] |
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my internet like died.... yeah..... and so did my cell phone.. this week has really really sucked.. but i dont even care anymore
i painted a lot this week which makes me kinda happy<3 i also started writing again :::::
why cant i do anything right
why do these stars seem not to shine so bright
it seems as though nothings the same
i messed up
you left
im sitting here calling out your name
everyone makes mistakes
some more than others
my mistakes werent ment to hurt
it seemed soo easy
just forget about it.....
but my mistakes seem to eat away at me
now they are killing you
i messed up
you left
im carving your name in my skin
the pain is a dull annoyance to the pain i caused you
im begging to be forgave
yet dreading if you forgive me ill hurt you again
lets start this over
hello my name is PAIN
dont fall in love with me
ill hurt you...
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[02 Mar 2005|01:11pm] |
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my engilsh class is going to be in here all the rest of this month. we have a ten page paper to do that i soo havent started.. oh well ill do it tonight. hmm grades.. lets see i got a C in algebra 2, B in biology, I in english(need to do another essay) and a F in spanish 3... seems to me that i have to step it up a bit. im not alowed to have c's and i got an F.. yeah my moms pissed
lighter note i got my permit.. finally.. well this block is almost over. so yeah..
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[24 Feb 2005|07:08pm] |
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ugh.. hmm... well tessa is always on that journey to make life hard on herself..i need to stop thinking so much. im okay with something. then i go and think about it forever and then im not okay anymore.. *smacks self* stop it!
yeah... im going to try to have fun tomorrow.. key word try yeah. i wouldnt be so ewww about it if it wasnt karinas birthday..i would def. be perfectly fine.
i guess i should get over it.. i mean it was like.. *counts* 3...5..6. six years ago. but its still hard.
and for thoes of you who are like wtf who is karina... well long story short she was my second cousin. when she was four she started staying at her step-grandmothers house.. and that fucking stupid bitch would beat her.. she beat her to death... theres her story.. yeah.. i should get over it.... yeah i should.. *hits self* STOP BEING ALL EMO AND SHIT TESSA...
gosh i def. talk to myself =-P
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[22 Feb 2005|05:53pm] |
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hmm.. lets see.. i didnt know that people were actually reading this.. oh well i really dont care..
hm whats going on in tessas life.. well theres going to be partying going on this weekend.. i will be crying and drinking at the same time.. im going to need a babysitter too. i have to be a good girl and not do anything with any guys. i think i can do it. *crosses fingers*
anyway firday shall be very emotional.. it would be karinas 11th birthday. = / its so sad. i guess the good ones die young.
wow i need to stoping thinking about it before i get all upset. i went to see a house in chincoteauge today. its nice. my mother and i like it alot. so tessa might be moving to chinco. soon. its kinda makes me sad.. i want to move farther down the es not up.. but owell.
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[21 Feb 2005|07:56am] |
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Accomack County would have school today.. when everyone else has off.. o well im not going. i dont feel good. i havnt posted in here in a while and i dont think that anyone will read it so yeah.. i can put whatever the hell i want in here.
people really fucking bother me with the whole OMG IM STRAIGHT EDGE AND I HATE DRAMA. i bet if the cool thing to do was set your self on fire and jump from a bridge you would do that to. other thing, WHO THE FUCK CARES WHO HAD W/E FIRST. all you little kids that are dying your hair black and cutting it short i find it extreamly amusing. i love how my hair was black in the 8th grade and short too. but i dont go around saying omg she copied me. so fuck you with your shes drama. everyones drama. we dont live in that damn wallgreens commerical. you should really take into consideration that if someone will talk casually about a person with you; they will talk about you oh-so-casually too. so if your like shes drama your just causing more drama. and the whole straightedge thing is just another way to start drama "omg i dont like you cause i dont drink anymore" its just stupid. why would you act like that. i respect anyone that is straightedge for logical reasons other than its stupid.. you didnt think that last week when you were getting drunk now did you? its just stupid to change who you are for someones approval
why is everyone trying to change themselves to look cool. why dont you think about what YOU like not what every one else thinks is cool. we dont have the freedom to wear/listen/act like we want(for the most part) just to fall in the line of every other black-haired-tight-clothes-straightedge-"hardcore kid"
yeah i jumped on Camilos band wagon and i had no room to talk. yeah i started drama...
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[17 Dec 2004|06:45pm] |
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[07 Dec 2004|09:18pm] |
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[03 Dec 2004|03:14pm] |
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i stayed home again! wow i missed alot of school..o well. i wanted to go to onancock this weekend but it doesnt look like thats going to happen. i read a pretty good book today (well wished) in like an hour. wow my hands r cold! im trying to get money to buy ppl stuff for christmas but it looks like im just goin to have to make gifts! which is fine w/ me and if ne one doesnt like thier gift i shall cry!
the puppies opened their eyes! they're so cute!
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[30 Nov 2004|03:12pm] |
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wow i actualy got off my lazy ass and decided to get on the computer. im sick.. sick sick effing sick and it sucks i actually miss school. well things r boring as usual around this boring house. my brother comes home thursday and my dad when to nj today i wanted to go but i HAVE to go to school tomorrow...
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[23 Nov 2004|06:37pm] |
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today was a pretty good day. i got out of 4th block YAY!! i dont like spanish class. i still have to finish my book for that class OOPS! i was looking at things to do to raise money for my student ambassador trip to Australia and New Zealand. i though that this was a pretty good idea:
Success Story: Katie B. from Alabama held a benefit concert and got her entire delegation involved. The concert was free. The great door prize tickets were $5. Each delegate received the proceeds from the tickets they sold. As a group they sold 4,000 tickets and raised more than $20,000.
i thought it was pretty cool. im doing a raffle all ready.. so yeah im pretty excited about it! even thought i will be gone 20 days out of the summer but who cares its Australia thats like a once-in-a-lifetime chance.. well at least for me!
ne way i came home today and there was a turkey in the refrigerator so im guessing i have to cook thanksgiving day dinner! o joy...
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[20 Nov 2004|10:42am] |
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today i woke up at 8 cleaned, and pretty soon im goin to start getting ready to go see my brother in jail... bunches o fun. hmm wow im boring... start my spanish project soon but i dont know what to do.. i have to wirte a 10 page book w/ pictures and its due wed.its like 20% of our grade and i havent even thought about starting it!
new word of the day:
misanthrope: Noun, One who hates or mistrusts humankind
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[18 Nov 2004|08:41pm] |
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my moms dog had puppies!! they're so cute!! hmm.. yeah today was pretty boring. i'm, not likeing school i have so much work and i have yet to even try to do! yeah ima slacker! ne way i went to the battle of the bands last night w/ kaite mandy and brooke! twas fun!
i'm going across the bay sunday for the meeting at Norfolk University about me goin to astrailia WHOO HOO!! im so excited!
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[07 Nov 2004|07:51pm] |
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So i made a new lj.... i was bored... ive been home alone all weekend.... no one calls and barely ne one talks to me online wow im feeling special.
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